So today God gave me a revelation. I have been dealing with some things for a long time and He just really put it in perspective for me and I really hope this helps anyone reading this.
This morning I woke up from a dream that I just knew had a deeper meaning to it. You see, I don't ever remember my dreams. I may for a little bit right after I wake up, but then it's gone from my memory by the time I get ready in the morning. I still vividly remember it now so I know it was special, and I haven't had a whole lot of dreams like that in my life. I'm not going to go into full detail about what my dream was simply because its personal. But the gist of my dream is that I finally got something back that I thought I lost a long time ago, but I got it back on my own doing, not God's. I wanted it so bad that I didn't care to be patient for God's plan and it ended up not being right at that moment. It wasn't time for it happen just yet, so it ended up failing... again.
I prayed on my way to school this morning, just telling God that I trust him completely. I have really dealt with trying to fix things on my own because I think I have the ability to. But I know I can't fix it, He is the only one who can. I told Him how much I love and trust him and that I will just sit back and let Him do His work and wait for my time to play my part in it. I have been confused and frustrated with him for so long because I thought He was telling me one thing and then something happened to counteract it. I'm learning to just surrender to His will and live my life just loving him. So I just asked him to reveal to me what this all means.
This is the amazing part of my morning. All of a sudden, I just sort of got this vision in my head. It was me and Jesus. I saw him building a chair out of wood while I just sat back watching him do it and allowing him to do his job, because I don't know the first thing about building this ornate chair. Suddenly, he beckoned me over to him. So I went and he said "Now it is your turn." At first, I was hesitant, I told him how I didn't know how. Then he told me how he didn't expect me to build a chair, he made it for me and now all I had to do was make it beautiful. I have always been good at artistic things, so I just knew that he wanted me to paint it. Again, I was hesitant. I told him how I didn't want to mess it up because he put so much work into it. This is when he said "You could never disappoint me. Just follow your heart and be yourself. You're ready. You know what to do."
That vision meant the absolute world to me. It applies to so much more than just my dream, prayer, and the things I have dealt with. It can be applied to so many different aspects in my life. I feel like it can be applied to anyone really. It may appear different to each person because God has unique plans for each person's life and we all have our talents and strong suits. No matter what though, you just have to be yourself, love God by living a life that is inspired by him, and ultimately trust in him.
After all of this, a song came on the radio that I have fell in love with recently. It is "Outta My Mind" by Anthem Lights. The chorus goes like this:
"Get me outta my mind and into Your heart
It’s not about me, it’s not about me
So I’m gonna start playin’ my part in Your design
Now is the time
Get me outta my mind
Outta my mind"
If you haven't listened to it yet, go to Youtube and look it up right now.You won't regret it. The lyrics are my favorite part of it, but the whole song is just great. I just felt like this song went completely with everything else in my morning. And I pray above all else that this post helps at least one person reading it :)
