Opened and Closed Doors

Life lately has got me thinking of opened and closed doors, figuratively speaking. I believe that sometimes God closes doors so that he can open up new ones. Sometimes it's hard to walk through that new open door because what lies behind the old closed one is still fresh on your mind. And you can't help but hope that maybe someday in the future, God will decide to open it back up for you. But you're also afraid of missing what could be beyond the opened door if you wait to long to walk through it. And the thought of walking through the open door and then missing the closed one, if it reopens, makes things even more difficult. To summarize it up, it's just a mass tangle of confusion.
In a way, this kind of sums up my life right now. Things are going really good for me right now, I guess sometimes it's just hard to not wish that things could go back to the way they were. God has closed some doors in my life recently. I trust that he did it for the right reason, I just wish I knew what the reason was. But who doesn't really? I know we all go through these types of tribulations in our lives and sometimes it can be hard to cope with the reality of what is going on. I fully believe with all my heart that God has a plan for my life and I trust in that plan, even though I have no idea what it involves. It seems like God has been opening up some new doors in my life and it makes me happy, don't get me wrong, I'm just having a hard time finding the strength to leave the closed door. I don't think I'll ever give up hope that it will be reopened, but I know that may not happen for a long time. I don't know what to do, but if there is anything I know, it's that God has my back.
 I guess my message to anyone reading this is that if you are feeling like doors have been closed on your life, just know that they were closed for a specific reason. And if you don't feel like any other doors have opened for you just yet, give God some time and doors will surely open up for you soon. What I'm learning now is to not ask so many questions and just go with my gut feeling. I know that I can't focus on the thought of "what if?.." That stupid question seems to hold so many of us back. But my philosophy is to take any chance you get and forget about the ones that passed you over because apparently they just weren't meant to work out, or atleast maybe not at that point in your life. So don't let the fear of losing what's behind the closed door keep you from walking through the opened one. You might just find someone truly beautiful and wonderful lying behind it's boundaries. But you will never know if you never take the risk. Who knows, in time the old door could open back up and then it's just one more journey in your life that was worth taking. Find your strength in the Lord, and you can never go wrong.
"Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you only have today."