Pure Happiness

Sometimes I can't help but take a step back and look at how truly blessed I am. God has me at the top of the list, or at least I feel that way. I have everything I need and so much more. I have a loving family who always has my back and is there for the good times and the bad. I have amazing friends who I can be completely myself around and they still love me for who I am as a person, and they always know how to have a good time. I have this new motivation in me to do the best I can at everything I do, whether it involved my school work or working out. I've been presented with opportunities that are helping me shape my future and have no worries as to what tomorrow holds. God is absolutely amazing, and I know he is the reason for everything good in my life.

I will admit though, sometimes things are just hard. I feel like my school work is never completely done and just keeps piling up. There are things I have hoped and prayed for in my life for months that I want more than anything, but nothing has changed, no matter how hard I try. I am also the type of person that stresses over every little thing, no matter how seemingly unimportant. I let minuscule details bring me down all the time.

But I'm learning more and more each day to let go of the things I cannot change and just trust God that he has only the best in store for me. Sometimes good things fall apart in order for better things to come together. Pain and hurt is inconceivable, but have we ever thought that maybe we have to experience hard times to make us stronger? God wouldn't allow something bad to happen in our life unless it was absolutely necessary to our own personal development. I don't always understand why God lets certain things happen, well heck, if I'm being completely honest, I don't understand at all. Why can't he just let things go my way? Things were going great, why did it have to end? But then I realize that God sees things that I would never have even thought of in my wildest dreams. I believe that God presents difficulties in our lives simply just to make us stronger. I see it as, how are you supposed to improve at all if you're never pushed to your limits? If we weren't pushed out of our comfort zones every now and then, we would never grow. It's hard to see it in this light when we're going through hard times, but just have faith, persevere, and everything will be revealed to you in due time.

Despite the difficulties life may throw at me, I never lose faith in my God. I will always trust him, even if everything and everyone I love is taken away from me. I trust that he has the best in store for me. I try to wake up each day with a positive attitude and welcome the day's activities. Very recently in my life, God has revealed to me some things that he has set in motion in my life. I feel like he has tested me in the past 6 months or so, pushed me to my limits in some ways, but all that struggle has brought me to where I am today, which is  completely happy with everything going on in my life and probably the happiest I've ever felt in my life. I feel so much stronger than I ever have before. He's showed me how strong I am and that I am someone of value and he has allowed me to appreciate myself through others eyes and truly love myself. I will go into more detail with that in my next post. I just have this great feeling that he's getting ready to renew and resurrect some aspects in my life that I thought were over. But now I know that he didn't end them for good, he just new that I needed time to grow as well as love myself and be fully confident. I'm proud to say that I have finally reached that place and I've never felt better.